Apologies for the lack of entries on here but I've just been dead busy with work etc and trying to get Scot off the computer is easier said than done.


So whats been happening then? Well first of all work has been hard and stressful, kids were off school for 2 weeks which always takes its toll on my mental health. Secondly I led the meetings at our church last week. Cant think of any more excuses so those two will have to do lol.

Work hasn't been all bad. I found out that I passed my level one maths exam which I did free through work. I have always been rubbish at maths and never understood anything more than the basics so I was pretty chuffed that I got 90% going to start working towards level 2 which could be the equivalent to an A* GCSE. My heads going to be mashed revising for that lol.

Church has been good. Its been quiet as Ian and Christine are on their holidays and as its been school holidays the clubs and bible studies have been off too. I led the meetings last week and I got myself so stressed out about it, to the point of lots of tears. I had a phone call off my sister Krista saying she was coming to church with her mum in law and that got me even more stressed. I didn't exactly pray that she wouldn't come but then I didn't pray that she would either which is just as bad. I want all my family to be saved and all my friends but I'm just not sure that I'm the one thats going to share Jesus with them. I know thats sounds so bad and I'm really ashamed of myself. I find it really easy to talk about Jesus transforming my life with strangers and friends yet really struggle with my family :o( totally irrational I know. I'm going to trust God to change that part of me because I love Krista a lot and can't bear to think of her in hell or anyone else in my family.