My pledge to post more on here didn't happen haha...ah well I can't help always being busy. Had an interesting week this week as I have been to London with work...got off the train at Euston and was instantly surprised at how dirty and scruffy London is and I'm glad I live where I live :o) anway it was an interesting course and I was surprised me and r kid didn't get lost. Met up with my lovely Alan and his boyfriend Nick on Thursday night in Soho and had a brilliant night and lots of drinks and food yum yum.

Church wise well I'm still going and thats about it..just feel very unmotivated regarding church and that has nothing to do with anyone else but me as I'm a very self motivated person usually. I just feel more alienated every time I go and again thats nothing to do with anyone but me cos everyone else is happy and im happy but just not happy at church. I'm sure I'll sort myself out cos I usually do get like this every now and then.

might put a bit more on here in a bit.

Its been so long since I last posted anything on here and I'm not even going try and catch up with the last 5 months. All I can remember doing is working :o). Work is good at the moment and I have not had a bad day for months and months now which is partly due to fact that I have my lovely friend Lorraine working with me which keeps my head screwed on. Went to Roots at the beginning of May...it was just lovely to be off work and to stay in a hotel for a change rather than camping. The Roots thing itself was ok, enjoyed the worship etc but it just seems that the same old format is getting tedious and boring and it was no surprise to find that it won't be on next year. I will look forward to 2010 when it will be relaunched with a new team etc.

Church is good. Nothing much changed there apart from probably me lol. I think since I got saved and up to August last year I was on autopilot and church was my whole life and I was obsessed with Jesus and stuff and then suddenly everything changed and now I'm kind of left with nothing and not even sure if God exists....I know thats an awful thing to put on here or even think but I'm being honest. I'm happy enough with my life as it is at the moment though and am looking forward to Hollybush this year. Not so many going from our church this year but it will still be an excellent week and the thought of a week of work is lovely as usual.

Not going to church this morning as I'm going to watch Megan and Amber from church in a cheerleading competition....never seen them dance or anything like that so am dead excited.

Going to try and post stuff on here more often as I really have no excuse.

Linz

Still no internet at home as my monitor blew up...well it didn't blow up but it might have done if I hadn't binned it :o) I dunno when I will get time to get a new one but it will hopefully be soon. I don't have much inspiration for this blog at the moment anyway so maybe its a good thing. I'm using internet at work again so gotta be quick so I don't get rumbled.

tata