Been fairly busy this week at work due to half term. Not mad busy but steady so my stress levels didn't reach a peak lol. We have always been told on courses at work that a certain amount of stress is actually quite good for you, that might be true for certain people but I can say it aint good for me, I don't enjoy being stressed at all even if I know it might be good for me.
Went to the fat club on Tuesday and somehow managed to reach my first target woooohooo I haven't a clue how that happened as I haven't been that good to be honest, I haven't been eating bad things but also haven't been eating that much good stuff either if that makes sense. Anway I have now lost 1 stone and 1 pound yay, its taken over 4 months but I feel a bit more motivated now, Christine reached her 1st target last week and Monica is on her way I think.

I went round to my sisters house yesterday and spent the day with her and baby as her husband and my nephew had gone out to the footie. To be honest I am always a wary of going as I don't want to put myself in situations that I don't think I can handle, spiritually or mentally. Had a good day chatting and looking at 100s of photos and playing with the baby (9 months old now). Left at 5ish and felt distressed on the way home. I missed loads of opportunities to share with my sister about Jesus yesterday, she asked me questions that I didn't answer properly as I was embarrassed and don't know why...very riled with myself and upset. I can tell friends and strangers about Jesus and what He can do for them but when it comes to my family, I find it so hard. Its a very selfish attitude to have as my sister and her family could end up in hell and that frightens the life out of me. Lord I pray for courage to talk to my family!